I don’t know about you but allowing myself to be vulnerable, even for the good of others sometimes truly scares me. For years I have written with the sole aim of connecting with people through trauma and hope, but when the rubber hits the road, like now for example, as I begin to type my first post, I feel that ping of fear in my heart that says “Do you really want to do this, because there is no going back if you do?”
But my response is yes! Yes, I do want to do this, because I know that it is the right path for me. Yes, I am nervous, but this year 2017, for me, is the year of being brave and stepping into all that the Lord has planned for me. That means even when I am scared, even if it makes me vulnerable, and even if I ultimately fail I will follow where He leads. For, how would I ever know what wonderful things may come as a result, if I refused to try? And, how would I ever grow anymore in character and in the pursuit of my dreams, if I stopped every time that I failed.
So, I begin to type and I lean on the Lord to strengthen me, as I remind myself of all the ways in which Jesus, has made me brave thus far. Brave enough to confront, brave enough to follow and brave enough to pursue. When my fleshly heart faints in fear, the word of God reminds me that He has a plan and purpose for my life, a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
Whether I am in the valley or high upon the mountaintop, He is still with me and He is in control. I may not know what is around the corner, but I place my trust in a God that does, a God that calls me to “Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. and promises For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9 NLT).